Compare the serene + simple splendor of a rose in bloom with the tensions and restlessness of your life. The rose has a gift that you lack: It is perfectly content to be itself. It has not been programmed from birth, as you have been, to be dissatisfied with itself, so it has not the slightest urge to be anything other than it is.
-Anthony De Mello
Self-intolerance has been a theme throughout my life. A lot of conflict when wanting to be something I'm not, being jealous of what others have, not being content with my life here and now. Not accepting myself or life.
I've learned self understanding is the way out of this mess.
There's no fight or desire to change who or what I am, simply the step to understand who and what I am.
This has been where the practice of breathing + meditation has taken me. Learning to observe thoughts with no judgement, letting them come and go. Observe what's happening in my body when I have one particular thought, able to let it go if it brings about discomfort or distress, while entertaining and embracing the thoughts that resonate with my spirit of love, peace, and joy.
As I practice this, the awareness of self understanding increases, which is always going to be based on self acceptance, and unconditional love for myself, and life. As all judgements of myself and the world around me drop away.